The First 6 Weeks

I know its been a long time since anything was posted; that's partly down to having a baby at home but mostly, I think, because we don't know what to say or didn't want to write anything simply based around the anger I suspect we both felt. This week, though, I have some good news … Continue reading Thank You

A guest post by my wife. There were so many people who turned up to say goodbye to Natalie. And we know that there were many more of you who wanted to come. So for everyone who came, who wanted to come but couldn't and for everyone that spared a thought for us; Thank You. … Continue reading A tribute to Natalie 

A guest post by my wife. For many months we've been told several times over that we are brave or that what we are doing is brave. I don't think either of us realised what that meant until the day Natalie died. To accept, regardless of how hard she fought or how much she worked … Continue reading Sometimes the bravest thing is saying goodbye

A guest post by my wife.  I've been trying to write this post for over two months.  I don't think there is an end to the amount of guilt I feel. My guilt starts shortly after we found out we were having twins and continues to this day. I confess I'm human and when I … Continue reading Guilt

So, I'm four weeks on from my last post (sorry, I haven't committed to any regular times for posts) about going back to work and I've reached a conclusion. It sucks.  In case my boss is reading, it's not the work that sucks. I enjoy my job (most of the time) and I can't find … Continue reading I’m still at work

I managed 2 whole weeks and a couple of days back at work before the reality that I could lose one of my daughters really sunk in. I think the point at which it hit home was when the doctor took us aside seeking to confirm that we knew one of our daughters only had … Continue reading Going back to work again

Just Giving - The First 6 Weeks Weʼre raising money to buy equipment and improve parent facilities at the Neo-Natal Intensive Care Units at Royal Bolton Hospital and Birmingham Women's Hospital.  Without the specialist equipment supporting them and the amazing staff caring for them, my wife and I know that our daughters likely wouldn't have … Continue reading Help us to help others in the future

It really, really doesn't. A special guest post by my wife. Today I decided to stop expressing, here is my story. With my girls being premature expressing breast milk is all I could do for them in the beginning and it gave them the best start possible. It was difficult and never have I worked … Continue reading Pumping makes me feel good…

While perusing a local supermarket the other night for something to snack on, we picked up a share size bag of Heroes to give to the nurses doing the night shift.  When one of the nurses asked why we had brought them in, I responded simply with "because you are our heroes". Whilst this may … Continue reading To the NICU Heroes

It's strange. The first few days I spent in NICU feel like they were only a moment ago in my head, but emotionally it feels like a lifetime. To an extent, it has been a lifetime, my daughters' lifetimes. Perhaps even longer than that when I consider we'd been going through the worry of losing … Continue reading Spending time with my daughters